Sunday, November 18, 2007
Mall
It was the one before the last. I don't get bothered as I pass the makeup counters on my way up. I am not accosted by fragrance or samplers as women in white smocks bump into one another smearing colors on each other in the resulting melees. My crows feet don't catch their eye, my poor complexion isn't caught in their mirrors. I am the hard sell. I am on the ninth floor walking past graveyards of mannequins moth balled before the coming war. My feet preceed me in echoes rattling off the stairs. I am a bat finding my way by radar. And up here in a place between places not quite heaven but nine up from hell I am reminded of a familiar but not so feeling. It is the biggest trigger, or so I have been told. The sense of smell can jostle loose fragments of pieces stuck in a belfry far too long unkempt. What do I do? Chase it? Up one flight (what's one more?) and into Minos' labyrinth of clothes and cubicles a bazaar of fashion and memory. Now I have been here before and found the corridors confusing and serendipitous but I have a golden thread with me leading towards whatever is on the other end.. I am at a crossroads at what I believe to be the very spot. It(he) smells just as I remember and he has to be at the most two corners from where I stand. This is the moment, yes here among a clutter of designer skirts and fall fashion, mens apparel and back to school kids wear. I can't even remember who I am and no one here thinks to ask. In my awkward way I turn about to find my way back and I am confronted by some dweller of this place. May I help you,who are you looking for, who are you? No, I'm not sure, Theseus.
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2 comments:
This was so beautifully written. Your seemingly effortless vocabulary makes me envious. But it is very true, smell can bring us immediately back into the past. I remember smelling the scent of one oh my ex's and it brought me right back into his arms. it is frightening.
it's an unfortunate experience, and i always feel like such a animal when im in that environment. smells turn me into a mess. i try to trace the memories, and i can never put the peices back together again.
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